Last night I had so many realizations. And one of those is that things are not the way they seem to be.
I arrived to this point where i am expected to be someone and somewhat stable. This post graduate studies of which I am sort of entangled has always been my dream since I was a kid. I was not that focused and determined and the past few months have been tedious for me. I hated myself sometimes for being too loose and too procrastinating.
That is why I will be making tough decisions for the next days and probably months. No more mr. procrastination. No more fuckin around. I want to go back on track, and this probably is the start. By writing this blog this could be a big leap, a reminder.
So I am askin you all to please pray for me. I seem to be way too lost right now. It was hard for me to accept that I am lost. But I should. No one accepts a lousy loser. No one will.
This goes out to the people around me. I may not come up to your expectations, but know that I have tried and I have put my heart to it. This time its for real.
